The day before the show... was one of those days where my brain wasn't working all that well. I imagine it's due to lack of routine met with the chaos of tending to last-minute details. Or maybe it's just the human condition. Hard to say.
I originally had a somewhat busy day planned, but I cancelled most of my appointments to focus on inviting people to the show. I went through allllll my text messages and sent individual invites, which as I've said before, isn't my favorite thing in the world to do. But (sigh) it has to be done.
Getting video footage of these next two performances is wildly important. And in order for the videos to be good, the performance itself has to be. I'm not expecting to be Beyoncé overnight, but I do believe in maximizing every available opportunity.
In other words, I want to work smarter, not harder, which all boils down to marketing. Without a sizable crowd, the video won't look good. And we need a good video from the Virgil so we can promote the HELL out of the Viper Room (our dream show).
So, I texted a bunch of my contacts–– some friends, some acquaintances, some random people I met on the street–– and I think we're going to have a pretty good turn out.
I was notably relieved after deciding to cancel my appointment at the agency. Getting my picture taken just didn't seem like a good idea the day before such an important show. I can't afford anything that's going to make me feel insecure right now, and digitals have a history of doing that.
I don't know when I started to be so self-conscious about how I look, or rather, when I lost confidence in my physical appearance (though it's not really surprising, given the society we live in). All I know is, tomorrow, I'm not indulging any of those feelings. Tomorrow, I am playing the part of someone who is totally confident and electrifying.
I plan to meditate for most of the day in order to get into character. I will spend the hours leading up to the show doing my hair, perfecting my makeup, and picking out the perfect outfit. I have complete confidence in my ability to deliver because the stakes are high and that's how I operate best.
Quite frankly, after this show, I'm excited to relax. And by relax, I mean work on other things that have fallen by the wayside. In the meantime, I just have to get through the next 24 hours.
Ttyt,
Hannah